Only a heart can feel empty when one person you trust has lost the trust in you.

That can causes pieces to fall and the loss of yourself

But keep your head up high because there will be more where they came from

For that person was not a true friend but just a friend and like my karate instructor said

“Fake friends are like autumn leaves while real friends are rare like diamonds.”

I have come to realize that certain people are worth fighting for while others who do not care and even though you fight for them they just push you aside as a piece of used paper towels.  That is not a true friend.  The true friend is the individual who takes the time to worry about you and gives you a helping hand with all of your problems…not just by looking at your status and realizing but by caring….

i have spent hours trying to figure out what i did wrong…made a list in my mind of what has happened…but i cannot find one thing that was a mistake…except for realizing that maybe this is not working out…this relationship with you has taken me no where just the fact that i am lonelier than i was before we even met. I cam here to this college to find myself and the people who really care yet…our friendship is nothing to you…i open up to you but you will not take me in. What are you trying to prove to me? No one cares apparently.  Because of that i cry for hours…you will never understand me and my hardships in life i am able to move so please let me be…because of you i know that my friendship with you is not real for you are an autumn leaf when i am looking for a rare diamond.  There are more people out there that will take me in for who i am…because you are just using me for the kindness i give…next time you will feel sorry.  Cause i will not give in to your crap and all the s*** you have done to me… I am me for me i will stand up for since I do not have you giving me a helping hand.

Have gone for a new start

Fresh slate they say

But all I want is to find that hands that will hold me

A shoulder that I can cry on 

And a friend that will be able to have my back

I miss all my friends 

and the brother that I lived with for 18 yrs of my life

what is there not wish for 

for this life may become empty and may not exist at all

we all say that we are lucky to be alive 

but wat are we living for

who are we here to save or to even give birth to

this world is full of curiosity that might as well kill all of the cats

because we have many questions that go unanswered

“was it I who should have died?” “Did I make the right choice to come here?”

I move slowly

yet no will understand the true feelings that we feel or the emptiness inside ourselves

but this is college where we learn and explore and find out what we are here to do

This is my fresh slate

christopherhernandez:

I don’t believe in myself sometimes..I always think of the worst possibilities. idk

More questions please :]

Y do u think that way when… i sometimes do but i know it won’t get be to be in that happy place.  Chris u r a good person so don’t doubt urself b/c there r ppl in the world that actually care about u and r worried about u.